And in many ways, she still is. ¿Tienes tu propia historia de crecer en Colombia? Compártela en los comentarios.
Silence was suspicious. Silence meant someone was sick, or the power was out, or—worst of all—that the coffee had run out. as a little girl growing up in colombia
The church bells ring, but half the town is already at the market. I hold my father’s calloused hand. We walk past pyramids of lulos , marañones , and curuba . A woman with gold front teeth yells, “ Mamey, mamey, pa’l amor de Dios! ” At 10:00 AM: My cousin steps on my white zapatos escolares during a game of escondidas (hide and seek) behind the church. I cry. She offers me a bocadillo (guava paste) wrapped in a dried leaf. I stop crying. At 2:00 PM: The whole family gathers for bandeja paisa —beans, rice, chicharrón, morcilla , plantain, avocado, and a fried egg looking up at the sky. The adults drink club Colombia beer. The children drink Colombiana soda. There is no such thing as “kid food.” At 7:00 PM: My great-uncle pulls out a worn tiple (small Andean guitar). My great-aunt yells, “ Ay, no otra vez el mismo vals !” But she sings anyway. We all do. And in many ways, she still is
, I promised myself I would leave. I did. I’ve lived in three countries since. But here is the secret no one tells you: Colombia never leaves you. It follows you in your scent for ripe plantains. It follows you in the way you gesture with both hands when you talk. It follows you in the unreasonable amount of hogao (tomato-onion sauce) you keep in your fridge. Silence was suspicious
But here is what I also learned: resilience is not a grand speech. It is my mother waking up at 4 AM to sell empanadas at the bus terminal so I could have a new notebook. It is my abuela turning a single chicken into a three-course meal (soup, main, and fricasé leftovers). It is every costeño on the Caribbean coast laughing harder than anyone else the day after a hurricane.
To paint a picture of that childhood is to dip a brush in colors that don’t exist anywhere else. It is not the Colombia of news headlines or Netflix narcoseries. It is the Colombia of foggy mornings in the altiplano , the scent of guava and wet earth, and the sound of my aunt’s voice singing while she ironed ruanas . As a little girl growing up in Colombia , my first lullabies weren’t soft. They were loud. Not violent—just vivo . The crack of a chiva bus backfiring on a cobblestone hill. The pock-pock-pock of my mother patting masa into arepas at 6 AM. The metallic cling of an aguardiente bottle cap hitting the floor during a parranda .